so many things have happened lately, and i just don't know how to handle them.

to the dancers, im sorry.
there's no point in walking away, i know.
but then again, i didn't stay back to listen to useless prattling about dbsk.
they don't even know you exist.
encouraging letters and smses are nice;
but then the next day..... it starts all over again.
i feel as though im trapped in a broken record.
did you know?
i do have other commitments.
what a shocker.

to jl, im sorry too.
that day... i didn't mean it.
it was a tough day,
but that's no excuse.
friends are fragile,
and i don't know who to trust anymore.
in this dog-eat-dog world,
it's every man for himself.
i think so too.

to mom,
i never said i was trying to be
some smart aleck
who thinks she knows everything.
how can you not see through her.
she has no character,
no values,
no NOTHING.
so why is it my fault?
is it really my fault,
that she's not in the best class,
that i don't want her to be like me AT ALL,
that i hate her?
i admit, i can never be like those
cuddly sister types.
im rough, so brothers are cool.
the worst thing is,
she was made for me.












damn. private peaceful essay.



i wish i could be as strong as charlie.