im an outcast?!

you can't even spell the word right.
hello? "outcaste"?
have you even heard of a dictionary?
or are your nails and "schoolwork" drawing you away?

so, im an outcast, huh?
like i care.
i know i dont fit in.
rubbing it in wont help, unfortunately.

i DON'T need to fit in with you guys.

stop being so conceited.
or are your eyes too far gone you can't even bring them down to look at a mirror.
go and die lah.

stop wallowing in your so-called "self-pity".
its more like DENIAL.

i could go on and on and on about how I feel,
but its not like you'll ever see this.
and even if you do, who cares?
it's a free world, after all.

seriously;
stop obsessing over the seniors.
they dont even live for anything as remote as you,
so why do it for them?
do you think,
when they bid us adieu
they're gonna go,
"remember her?
that one?
really liked her.
nice girl.
glad she liked us,
cos we liked her too"?

don't delude yourself,
because nothing ever comes out of nonsensical thoughts and musings.

or you know what?
just carry on.
its not like i care whether you live or die.
and when someone throws you into the sea,
you'll finally be living up to your namesake.

shit. im not gonna waste anymore space for you and your stupid, ignorant, insolent, totally replaceable self.
SNAP OUT OF IT, LOSER.