Don't let 'em say you ain't Beautiful

One Step at a Time; Let's Take It Slow

So here I am, taking a gamble with you. I no longer want to think about how the future might be, because as some say, it is the journey that counts. Whether or not we make it, or if this eventually fizzles out, I hope I would have left a positive footprint in your life. Your life, more than anyone else's.

class 95 love stories are so nice sometimes.

Dress it up with the trappings of love;

is it me you're referring to?

I'll be Love's Suicide...

I Can Wait... I Can Wait Forever

i can wait forever.
i just don't know if you can.

just can't stand me and my imperfections sometimes. okay, make that every time i look at myself.

the truth shall Set You Free

okay. really random.
but really.
something's gotta be said soon.
i think?
maybe.
i don't know.

what when? how? what?
 what's there to say when maybe, maybe you've got nothing to say?

rah. that's something for another time.






gonna teach my awesome level hip hop tomorrow. pray i don't screw up. pray i don't make a mess of myself. needa learn new stuff. needa practice.

y'know, sometimes i just feel like i'm not good at anything. 
...and ain't that just kinda sad.

The Only Exception (for not everyone can make me feel like I'm livin' a Teenage Dream)

You think I'm pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the punch line wrong
I know you get me
So I'll let my walls come down, down

Before you met me
I was a wreck
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my valentine, valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

I might get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

You make me
Feel like
I'm living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's runaway
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

Coincidences.

'cause Life's just cool that way :)

*angels*

the words of the Experienced

What you said today makes sense, sir.
Got a feelin' you're gonna be that sort of overprotective, "hurt my daughter and i'll shoot you" kinda dad. But that's nice- beats the one i have):

But it's k. I've got over it.
What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger, right?

It's sweet how she was your first, sweet how you knew she was the one for you, the one you'd care for in sickness and in health, in richness and poverty, till death do you part.
But the pessimist in me says - will it last?
How do you know?
How does anyone know?
I guess you can't quite blame me for thinking that way.


It's time to take a step back. 

incrimination

so, i was saying... well, nothing really.
chatter...silence...
loud..soft..hushed..
12.31am. it's quiet.
literally. figuratively.
why?

y'know what. a blog's a diary, but it's like keeping a diary without a lock, and leaving in on your desk in class. safe? nah, i don't think so.
these thoughts, they're staying in my head.
i might write it down, yes.
but they're for my eyes only
heh, go figure.


t'day was rather... weird. really,
can't think of another word.
i hoped,
but nah.
not yet. (i think)


despite my hiatus from taking up space and producing e-waste,
i actually have stuff to post. (from a while back)
but i'm lazy. bite me.


Lucifer's playing while i type this. LOL


i hate being a second-rate version of myself, seriously.
but i guess that's why i never make it to the top,
'cause it's not like i do much to improve the situation.
 and who's fault is that? 

Gifts from the Heart... INSPIRE (:

good job to the OT, it was a really nice concert, and i enjoyed every item! (though some more than others hehe :P)
BUT OMG THE DANCERS + CHOREOGRAPHY WERE DAMN COOL.
QUITE A FEW HOT/SEXAYYE GUY DANCERSSSS... of course, i'm referring to their dancing. LOL. cute singer also got ^^

man, i sound so superficial and blonde. hurhur xp


and of course, another group photo! but still not full strength aww..

*stoically ignores certain comments and likes*




~scandalous pair with all your manywordsquishedintoone-type problems XD 

three things:

1. the debate didn't happen. cheated my feelings hmmpfh:/ on the bright side, I GOT A1 FOR THE TA! OMG YAY haha 'cause i thought i like, seriously screwed it up. now i know, i am capable of rocking rebuttal paragraphs. booyeah!
2. a questioned popped up. uh... what are YOU doing?
3. it's 10pm, and i'm about to start mugging for a math test tomorrow. modulus function, linear law, curves and circles. alll whilst glee's going on. yeah yay.

Ground Day Zero

35 minutes till it's officially Day One.
Getting really nervous, really freaked.
Especially with no IOP till tomorrow.
...
Trying to feel psyched. Gah.
What if I missed something?
What if I bring the wrong things?
That's always my biggest problem - what to pack. what to wear. what to bring.
>.<

ohmygeegeegeegee (no I'm not copying the Garde cheer, it's just an alternative to omg).

Tomorrow will be the first time I miss CSD/CSM (Cedar Sports Day/Meet).
Pity I won't get to see the cheer routines.
Not that this year's cheerleading "atmosphere" has been great. Too much politics, imo.
At least I didn't join - the stress would have killed me, not to mention I would have been forced to drop out (AYC, aye)
Ahwell.

Hope AYC's gonna be great... make all our hard work worth it (:
And after that, I REALLY NEED TO GO BACK TO BALLET.
missed so many lessons.. giving me withdrawal symptoms ):):
stretchhhh...turn...jump...dance <3
 

Oh, Broken Angel;

SongLyrics.com Broken Angel

Birthday Wishes

On your birthday, you don't need fancy restaurant reservations, you don't need diamond-studded Cartier watches, you don't need fancy cakes. On your birthday, the best present comes from the heart, comes from effort, comes from sincerity. It's packaged with love, wrapped with care, sealed with the promise to stay together forever, to never forsake each other.
This year, it came in a card.
I'm glad you loved it ♥

 

Happy Birthday Mom :D

Cocksure about being Unsure;

it was... sweet, and uh, cute... in a way. :)
gotta admit, you had guts...

i'm sorry i didn't say much, i'm not good at talking about my feelings... i need time to think, and to plan it out... i know "i don't know" just doesn't really cut it.

the future's uncertain... let's just see where it takes us.

'cos i just don't wanna lose it all

Do I Make You Proud

I've never been the one to raise my hand,
That was not me and now that's who I am
Because of you I am standing tall.
My heart is full of endless gratitude,
You were the one, the one to guide me through,
Now I can see and I believe it's only just beginning

This what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

I guess I've learned, to question is to grow
That you still have faith, is all I need to know
I've learned to love myself in spite of me
And I've learned to walk, the road that I believe

This what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved

This what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

This what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

Do I make you proud?
Do I make you proud?

I'm proud of all the leaders, 'cause we are more than just students.
We have more commitments, more things to do, higher standards, greater expectations... and yet we manage, somehow, to stay on top of it all.
For that, WE.ARE.AWESOME.

CEDAR PREFECTORIAL BOARD
EXECUTIVE COMMITTEE 2010-2011,
WE ARE THE BEST
WE TOP THE REST
WE ARE THE LOVE<3

And I Lover Deeper... and Spoke Sweeter... Lived Like I Was Dying

He said: "I was in my early forties,
"With a lot of life before me,
"An' a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
"I spent most of the next days,
"Looking at the x-rays,
"An' talking 'bout the options an' talkin’ ‘bout sweet time."
I asked him when it sank in,
That this might really be the real end?
How’s it hit you when you get that kind of news?
Man whatcha do?

An' he said: "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

He said "I was finally the husband,
"That most the time I wasn’t.
"An' I became a friend a friend would like to have.
"And all of a sudden goin' fishin’,
"Wasn’t such an imposition,
"And I went three times that year I lost my Dad.
"Well, I finally read the Good Book,
"And I took a good long hard look,
"At what I'd do if I could do it all again,
"And then:

"I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

Like tomorrow was a gift,
And you got eternity,
To think about what you’d do with it.
An' what did you do with it?
An' what can I do with it?
An' what would I do with it?

"Sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I watched Blue Eagle as it was flyin'."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

"To live like you were dyin'."
"To live like you were dyin'."
"To live like you were dyin'."
"To live like you were dyin'." 

 Gahh. What's wrong with me. Am I overreacting?

Yeah, I probably am.

Maybe it's the stress.

Maybe. Yeah, Maybe.

Hmfph. Who know's if I'm making excuses.. even I myself, do not know the answer to this million-dollar question.

I laughed with you, laughed 'cause it was just so damn epic, so damn hilarious... I laughed till I cried.

And then suddenly, I just felt like bawling my eyes out.. over everything that's going on.. about the decisions I have made and have yet to make...

Oh God. Help me...

hey. you think you're fucked? please, try living my life.

every saturday, i have

-ballet: 10.30am-12pm

-YOG: 12.45pm (since we don't seem to a shred of punctuality ingrained in us)-4plus/5

-AYC: can take up almost my whole day, depending.

-church service project: 12.30pm-4plus

tell me, how do I choose? Whatever my choice, i "pon" the other three...

i keep asking myself what if... what if i never joined Cedar Dance, what if i never agreed to be part of the AYC SOT... better yet, what if i never joined CPB,
what if i wasn't Catholic? pfft... one musn't think such thoughts...

not to mention, i have no fucking tuition, not because i don't want it, but because i can't.
it's a fucking miracle i'm not at the bottom of the cohort.
 yet, i'm underperforming. bloody hell.

...i may have made a bad choice today,
i may have made someone upset, pissed and annoyed, more like.
but that's life. you can't always be thinking of yourself, about your own schedule. other people have their own sometimes screwed up life to attend to.

and please, guys, stop hatin' on the school... have you ever thought that it might not be the school, BUT RATHER THE PEOPLE IN IT? and yo,  i'm not talkin' bout the above-21s... SOMETIMES WE THINK WE KNOW IT ALL... but delusioned is all we are. yeah, just like how i turn away when you guys are eating in class, whenever you break the rules in any way you deem fit, even though it makes me wanna scream. Call me guai kia, call me goody-two-shoes, i don't care. because at the end of the day, i don't think any of you care about the fact that i feel like a bloody hypocrite when i let all these things pass... yeah, i smile and laugh it off, but i feel like i'm cheatin' on the trust placed upon me... i'm guess i'm just not living up to expectations. good grief, sometimes things are just outta your hands, and ya just gotta accept it kays?

Join the RACe!

wah... just as i thought i could go sleep... I CAN'T SLEEP.
what's my bloody problem man.. i'm even lying down on my bed like, flat out. nope, not that tired. and i finished my work! well, sorta. i just hope she reads my emails.
maybe my lappy really wants me to do my homework.
that bad, huh?

nevermind, i shall take the opportunity to blog about T-O-D-A-Y!
hahaha.

lol it really was kinda awkard standing next to (or rather, behind and away from) b****** in the morning... good thing the girls came pretty shortly after me.
i swear, that guy's so introverted he's about to turn himself inside out.

THE RUN.
one word: MUDDY.
tiring, but worth it. having a good time with friends, and helping out a good cause- that's two birds with one stone right there.

VOLLEYBALL:
omg. FUNN.... but definitely must train up more.. spiking and libero-ing!!

AFTERWARDS:
wah my stress speed really deproved eh.. what's wrong with me man...


...

ah i'm getting tired.
lazy write longlong.

my parting words:
 AIYOO WHY GOT ONE UNGLAM PHOTO OF ME!!
eh but actually it makes quite a cool dp.... probably the only shot of me from the back LOL.


bleaghs. waking up in 8 (so i tell myself, so i hope will happen) hours.
I MUST NOT OVERSLEEP.
yeah, who am i kidding.
my body certainly knows better.

jy dude! :) (the lack of sleep's really gonna take it's toll, so be careful...)

GOODNIGHT FOLKS! 晚安！