so... you talking to me, or what?

wait. wait.
don't tell me.
i don't wanna know.

detachment is better than attachment;

sometimes, i just don't know what to think anymore.

are you too childish, or am i just being too mature.
nah, that's just tootin' my own horn.

but still, don't hurt my feelings that way.
i'm not as strong as you think.

i don't joke.
not exactly.
my "jokes",
are nothing but sarcasm;
laced with a hint of vodka,
scotch,
whiskey,
and the finest wines.

drugging you,
till, to you,
i'm blurred at the edges.

and you never get to see my true self.



grow up, i say.
grow up.

but who am i to admonish you,
if i myself have my own faults?

okay, i am officially under house arrest.
because i do not have h1n1, but ili->influenza-like illness

so.. that means i get to stay at home for the next 7 days!!!
the class won't get loa though, heehee...

but it's not as if im 100% holidaying what.
still got hw to do.

oh well. at least i can catch up on my notes.
oh wait.
DAMN. left my colourful (okay not really) pens and markers in my locker. sigh.

nevermind. just have to use black pen. or blue pen. or any other pen i can find.
at least i can start on printing all the powerpoint slides.
i feel like such a loser, feverishly (if you'll pardon the pun) taking down every single scrap of information.

hmm.
bye peeps.

ps. i wonder who passed this to me...... *remembers this incident on the bus...*

long time never post liao, so it's time for an update!
i can practically hear shearin go THANK GOODNESS... haha.

spent the whole afternoon trying to do stuff for express yourself day (which i shall hereby dubb ceyd09, and whose blog url is this) like the blogskin, which still kinda sucks, and a poster.

i actually DID finish the committee logo, and then i realised that i spelled yourself as YOUSELF. and i ALREADY MERGED THE LAYERS. which meant that the damage was IRREVERSIBLE. which meant that the whole thing was SCREWED. so i had no choice but to scrap the whole bloody thing. which totally pissed me off.

soo... i just gave up on the whole stinkin' thing and just finished posting on the ceyd09 blog, and went off to read. didnt even have the energy to go start on chinese, which means that im gonna be very screwed on monday.

ps. Peter Facinelli is actually pretty hot, especially when he's blond, like when he plays carlisle (pronounced "car-ly-l") cullen.

i think im finding alot of people hot, nowadays. like draco malfoy. hot damn.

pps. i still don't quite see how mr ang can be related to me. does that mean all the people who have the surname tan (which is quite a lot, seeing as that is the majority of the population) are related? actually, they probably are. tan was the name of a huge village, or something. but still?!

pps. joey is friends with celynn ang? since when? damn, man.

dammit. i lost my to-be-gotten songlist. darn darn darn darn darn.
now i have to start all over again. damn.
wish me luck.

ps. september 24 is approaching :D

I am blogging in a shuttle bus. Wow.

Watched transformers yesterday. It rocks!!!

Haha more coming up tonight. Bye!

ah, been such a long time since i posted.

anyways CONGRATULATIONS TO MELISSA WU FOR WINNING SINGAPORE'S FIRST MEDAL AND DOING CEDAR AND SINGAPORE PROUD!!! :D
she got third in long jump :)

so, here's the latest in my movie-watching life:

gave up on private practice. it just got so boring, probably 'cos i expect it to be as good as ga, but no, so byebye pp.

didn't even bother about gossip girl lah. didn't like it within the first like what, fifteen minutes? so good riddance to that too.

started on True Blood.
it's like twilight, only the R-21 Texas version. lol.
seriously its so sick okay.
like porno with a capital P.
i wonder how much they pay the actors and actresses to get it on.

imagine doggies humping.
then add vampires into the mix.
feel the horror.
i see your pain :x

i'm worried that the fucking sucker's gonna come back to my blog again, so im changing the link.
just thought i would let you know.

bye.

im sure you've noticed the blogskin :X

im having a major GA withdrawel, so i have to see my favourite faces every single day.

haha no actually i kinda forgot how this skin looked like (i saved it on my desktop) so i decided to let this place turn into a shrine for the next, let's say, few months? yaaayy..... ;)

the title for each section, as well as the message on the front page and the scrolling text are all excerpts from the series, with the scrolling this being the prologue said 3/4 of the time by meredith and the rest...

ah forget it. you wouldn't know what i was talking about anyways.

went to border's today to go look for the dvds. only had season 2 whichs costs $39.90. quite reasonable lah, considering it's the longest series out of the five so far. so. must start saving. desperately.

secretly went to try my teacher's pointe shoes before class today.
the feeling is simply amazing.
actually we are ALREADY SUPPOSED TO START POINTE.
no thanks to my class. we must be the slowest, ever.
no offense guys.
but i like things speedy.
so i am going to save up, and go to stage image myself.
it doesn't even hurt.
not really, anyways.

but i can take it.

the flu jab didn't even hurt.
being bitten by an ant would hurt wayy more, seriously.
adrienne and wee ming came in just as i was about to take it.
and the nurse was like "relax, relax, just RELAX..."
and i had my -.- face on and was like (in my mind of course), "im not going anywhere... just stick the thing in already."
aiya but by the time i turned to look she pulled the thing out already.
so sad.
i thought i would be at the elbow and going all the way in.
oh well.

im so gonna donate blood so i'll be seeing lots of that.


"intestines in the hand! i repeat, INTESTINES IN THE HAND!!!"
-christina yang, season four, episode eleven.

or twelve. can't really remember.

cip today was real meaningful.

it was a tour cum workshop cum performance for some kids, only these kids were special.
they are in a home for kids who were previously abused, or have single parents who cant' afford to raise them. they are also protected, which means that their picture cannot be taken in order to protect themselves. it's like erasing your identity, disappearing off the face of the earth.

what's it like, to "never exist again"? to have no identity?

nowadays, camwhoring goes on practically all the time.
to preserve a memory, an experience, we just take out our cameras and snap.

what's it like to not be able to do that?

just think: if my dad had laid a hand on me, i could be there.
if my mom didn't have a job, i could be there.
if i had more siblings, i could be there.

these kids were as young as THREE.

they can't even tell you the entire times table, yet the emotional battering they have taken far exceed what we will ever feel. some women never recover from Battered Women's Syndrome, yet, when i look at these kids, you can never tell of their past.

they are strong.

and for that, i admire them.

just watched 小孩不笨2.

ah i forgot how cute shawn lee and joshua ang are.
too bad joshua not related to me.
if only i could trade my cousin joshua for him. waaaayyy better.

sigh. what a touching movie.

j.a.'s acting mucho better than 乒乓员 aka hand of glory.

going to zzz now, got cip tomorrow. have to be at plaza sing at 9!!! gosh.
okay goodnight world.

dream of hot doctors and cute singaporean guys ;)

i have decided.

i shall watch private practice until season 6 begins.
and if i get bored, i shall just watch gossip girl-for the heck of it.
no way am i gonna get into that boy's over flowers thing.
the name already annoys me, in some way.

halfway through episode one already. not bad lah. GA still rocks socks :D

oh oh i forgot to introduce it.
it's actually just a spin-off of Grey's Anatomy, even written by the same person.
it just focuses on Addison Montgomery [no more -Shepherd (can't say i'm too sad)], who leaves the neonatal wing of SGH (not Singapore General Hospital ah, Seattle Grace Hospital) to join a small-town LA clinic-like place, hence the title of the show.

->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->->

which reminds me, gonna go take the flu jab on friday.

in case you don't know...
your 'rents should receive an email about the ayg.
apparently moe and some other organization whose acronym i can't remember have managed to get the entire ayg workforce free flu jabs.
so... all of us can get it, if we want, by this saturday, 20 june.

bear in mind, THIS DOES NOT PROTECT US AGAINST H1N1-A, so don't get your hopes up.
and anyways it does not ensure that you confirm will not get the flu in the next one year,
IT IS JUST A PRECAUTION.

comprende?




p/s. im sure by now you know that the vaccine for the H1N1 virus has been created.
however it is still in the testing stages, and at this point in time i do not think singapore has placed an order, although australia has ordered copious amounts of the stuff. oh well. just have to stay away from people who are "barking", and WASH YOUR HANDS. lol.
ciao guys ;)

officially finished grey's anatomy yesterday.
SADD ):

it's gonna be so long till season 6.
SEPTEMBER 24TH!!!




oh, and t.r. knight is gay. sheesh.

seriously, im a ga freak.
i wash my hands up to my elbows now!!! (which is pretty okay, seeing as i am babysitting a dog now, but still...!!)

yeah. i need help.

and hahn kissed torres?! eww gross eww eww....
[season 4 episode 15]

gonna watch the last ep of season 4 now... then its on to season 5!

:D

ugh. i really hate holiday homework. HATE IT.

-i need to go to Popular. soon.
-geog sucks. i hate research. okay, not really. just... why did i have to get pasir ris/tampines? why not cbd?
(no offense to those staying in pasir ris/tampines)


p/s. homework update:
science mid year '05
science eoy '08
ij toa payoh paper 1
ij toa payoh paper 2
anglican high paper 1
anglican high paper 2 (what the heck is mathematics d? weird.)
set language and notation worksheet 2
set language and notation worksheet 3
english practice paper 1 (compre)
english practice paper 2 (compre)
english practice paper 1 (summary)
english practice paper 2 (summary)
chinese
geog
lit
history

i am officially at season four now.

happy- hmm for some weird reason yeah.

sad- not much grey's anatomy left ):

but ____ still hot and cute, people. HOT AND CUTE.

oh man. im crazy. craaaaaaaaaaazy.

i just realised. my blogskin has no archives. oh well. guess you, my dear readers, will just have to read more often so as to not miss out on my very very good and engrossing and captivating entries.




who am i kidding??

got a few pictures of lady (the dog im babysitting), but cant seem to find the camera cable. oh well.


p/s. homework update:
science mid year '05
science eoy '08
ij toa payoh paper 1
ij toa payoh paper 2
anglican high paper 1
anglican high paper 2 (what the heck is mathematics d? weird.)
set language and notation worksheet 2
set language and notation worksheet 3
english practice paper 1 (compre)
english practice paper 2 (compre)
english practice paper 1 (summary)
english practice paper 2 (summary)
chinese
geog
lit
history

okay, im going nuts. i like to see guys fight.

not like, sumo-wrestling, boxing, muay thai fight. that's just... gross. and a little weird. like me. heh.

nope, im talking like alex karev-george o'malley fight.

or slapfight, rather.

hawt, yo.

[season 3, episode 7 - where the boys are]

i have to say, the crew's really damn good - a song title for every episode? and i havent heard of them for the most part. must go and listen.

p/s. golan yosef, who plays this spanish count in cheetah girls 2 (yeah, i know, LAME, but...)?

incredibly gorgeous dancer. yum.

pps. no updates on the homework front. too bad.

george o'malley

"McDreamy was doing the McNaughty with McHottie?! That McBastard!"


HAHAHA.

said by george, season 3 episode 6.

:D